This time has been different

Trigger warning-pg post 
I don’t want to hurt anyone by posting this so if you’re not in a good space please don’t read.

Feb 11:

Take a cheap dollar store test. Verify the positive with and FRER. Obviously glad to be pregnant again but very nervous given my history. 

Feb 13-23

Beta HGC doubling every 2-3 days until my last draw. Cue freak-out. 

Feb 29

6w2d. First ultrasound. I’m convinced it’s going to be bad because the HCG didn’t double. So convinced that I tell my husband to not bother coming. So I’m SHOCKED when she shows me a beating heart (which I could make out myself). The nurse practitioner tells me once the HCG levels are greater than about 5k they only expect a rise of about 60%. Wish my doctor would have mentioned that! 

March 8

7w3d. My husband comes to this appointment. We still see a perfectly beating heart at 144, and we can hear it! Graduate to the OB. Bittersweet. 

March 17

8w5d. First OB appointment. I’m again feeling nervous because my boob soreness has gone away for the past couple of days. I’m still feeling some pulling and cramping in my uterus but I’m not very frequently nauseated. Again I am so surprised there is still a heartbeat, at 176, and baby is measuring right on track I guess symptoms really do come and go. Also, this was my first time meeting her and I am so glad I switched. 

April 1

This will be an extra heartbeat check for peace of mind. Thank goodness I asked. 

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Honestly I’m dying to feel nauseated constantly so I can have some reassurance but it looks like my dominate pregnancy symptom is cramping in my uterus. I’ve never noticed this in my other pregnancies so it’s what gives me comfort. Obviously we are no out of the woods yet, and with my unicornuate uterus I’m at increased risk for complications. However, I’m doing a pretty good job of staying calm and just taking it day by day. 

I’m taking vaginal progesterone twice a day, which I’m suppose to take until 10 weeks but she said if it makes me more comfortable I can stay on it through the first trimester. I’m also taking baby aspirin daily, a prenatal and extra folic acid. She’s going to ask the maternal fetal medicine doctor about if I can stay on the aspirin and also what extra monitoring I may need with the UU. Once I hear what the MFM has to say, then I’ll make my case for extra monitoring of my cervix. I’m also doing acupuncture twice a week throughout the first trimester. It’s been incredibly calming.

Hubby thinks it’s a girl. I do as well. I hope we get to find out. 

Due date is Oct 22, 2016.