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16 weeks and the cervix checks begin…

I had my 16 week appointment yesterday and everything looks good so far! My cervix is measuring 5.15cm which is fabulous. Thank goodness! (Side note, I went in around 14 weeks for intense pelvic pressure and my cervix measured 3.2cm so I am very happy with the longer measurement). My uterus is also measuring on track for 16 weeks.

I asked if she could try and estimate the baby’s gestational age and he is measuring right at 16 weeks 3 days, so perfect growth. I am super concerned about IUGR after last time. It didn’t show up until sometime between my 20 week ultrasound and my growth scan around 28-29 weeks. So I’m reassured that things are fine now but not entirely convinced it won’t happen again. Baby A was somewhere in the 30th percentile at 20 weeks and <3rd percentile at the growth scan so we shall see.

I’m still taking the vaginal progesterone twice a day which is messy and not my favorite thing but I have no interest in seeing what happens if I stop. I took it though the entire pregnancy last time and will be doing the same this time. The new pack of pills are red, which is lovely because it looks like blood when it comes out. I was reading about this on google and someone pointed out that if it was real blood, it would turn brownish on your pad, while the red progesterone stays a bright red. That was extremely comforting and so far only bright on the pads!

I’m also still on the baby aspirin. I’m not sure when I will stop that. Last time I stopped at 28 weeks. I have my doubts that the aspirin actually helped the blood flow later in pregnancy because of when A was diagnosed with IUGR relative to when I stopped the aspirin. We shall see.

I’ve been feeling flutters since 15 weeks which is amazing! I never had flutters with baby A because of my anterior placenta. Only pokes. This time my placenta is partially anterior so better for movement. I’ve also been having some intense round ligament pain. Feels like really bad period cramps only on the right side (the side my uterus is on). It’s not daily thank goodness but several times a week. Very uncomfortable. Otherwise feeling good!

Lastly I’ve already put on 12 pounds so not good! I blame the holidays and needing to eat when I felt crappy. Hopefully it gets a bit better now that I’m feeling better. But I really have to watch it.

Hope everyone is well!


Lucky number 7?

I will be talking about another P here so please do not read if you’re not in the right space.

One week ago, I noticed some serious abdominal pain, gas and bloating and I just knew I was pregnant. So last Friday I took a cheap internet test and got a squinter. I was pretty sure I saw the line so I shelled out for a better test and I was for sure pregnant. This was at 10dpo.

I had started taking vaginal progesterone twice a day from 3dpo, and I have been taking baby aspirin for months. With my only successful pregnancy I took the vaginal progesterone from 3dpo so I am officially doing everything the same this time around.

I actually waited until 14dpo ask my RE for blood work. I wanted to see some higher numbers this time. My progesterone came back at 49.1, beating out my last progesterone by 1, so I’m still going with the assumption that progesterone is not an issue for me. My first beta came back at 98, and the second (at 16dpo, just over 48 hours later) is 268, so it more than doubled in the correct timeframe. Thank goodness!

The next step is to get a repeat HCG in a week. If things still look good I schedule a viability ultrasound around 7 weeks. I wish 7 weeks wasn’t the week of my daughters 2nd birthday but I don’t want to wait until 8 weeks and fudging the dates will put me at 6 weeks 1 day. That’s way too early in my opinion, especially after seeing a heartbeat around 6 weeks and then miscarrying at 7 weeks 1 day. I’d rather wait a little longer. I have a trip planned that throws a wrench in the scheduling of an ultrasound later on in week 6. Maybe I’m getting ahead of myself here.

As for pregnancy symptoms, I have had a little gas, bloating and minimal light cramping. But that’s it. I know it’s super early (16DPO) but my mind seems to remember way more cramping this early.

All of this being said, I have been here several times before and it’s fallen through every time but once. I am anxious and scared. But I also feel relaxed a lot of the time because I know there is nothing I can do to change the outcome. I can only hope this embryo implanted in a cozy spot that has enough blood flow to get everything it needs until its birth at full term.

And thus begins the rollercoaster of emotions, anxiety, obsessing over pregnancy symptoms (or the lack thereof) and hope. Because I can’t help but have some hope, even if the odds are against me.

Saline sonogram 2.0

I had my saline sonogram yesterday on CD10. I found my last one in 2015 to be quite crampy and uncomfortable. It was (and still is) my most uncomfortable experience with fertility procedures. This time I took 300mg Motrin 1 hour before and what a difference! Although maybe it was the doctor’s technique that was better but I literally had no pain (although I was bracing myself for pain the entire time). (Edited to add that I apparently took 800mg of Motrin before my last procedure so it must have been my new doctor’s technique). It took less than 10 minutes.

Fortunately there is nothing in my uterus that shouldn’t be there. He also reiterated that if we didn’t know about my UU, he would never be able to tell based on ultrasound that I had one. Oddly enough I almost wished for a polyp so I could undergo another hysteroscopy. One of my theories is that baby A stuck around because of the hysteroscopy creating an area for her to burrow in deep, sort of like an endometrial scratch. Alas I will never know if that was the magic needed but it’s certainly possible.

I still have the same cyst on my left ovary so I hope it stays for several months so I can ovulate from my connected right ovary for awhile, hopefully increasing my chances to be pregnant for the 3rd time in a year…sigh. When we were on our journey toward baby A I had a cyst on my left ovary for a long time, around 6 months. Maybe that is a more cyst-y ovary, if that is even a thing.

I am so unsure that I will ever carry another pregnancy to term. While I now know my body is capable of doing it, I certainly have pretty terrible odds with pregnancy outcomes. What a weird and lonely journey to be on. Never in a million years would I have expected to have recurrent pregnancy loss. I didn’t even know this was a thing until after I had my first miscarriage. Oh to be blissfully ignorant again.

At least we are still heading in the right direction…

Today I am 12w3d pregnant. One week away from the second trimester (although that’s to be debated…I guess technically I could be there already by hitting 12 weeks or I could be 10 days away if I considered 14 weeks to be the start…I’ll go with the happy medium).@@

In general, this has been an incredibly uneventful first trimester, up until yesterday and today. I had an extra reassurance scan at 10w5d where everything looked on track. I weaned my progesterone suppositories to once a day with the plan of stopping after my NT scan on Friday. My pregnancy symptoms were mainly very mild cramping, and I usually had nausea and felt pretty poorly in the evenings up until last Wednesday. Then just very mild on/off cramping. Of course that made me nervous but a lot of googling convinced me it’s normal to have diminishing symptoms in weeks 11/12. My husband and I were preparing for the NT scan this Friday. Yesterday, I had about 8-9 hours of on/off period-like cramping fairly consistently. It was making me nervous but I was trying to convince myself it was normal and my uterus is just growing. I called the advice nurse in the evening and she set me up to see an OB this morning. She also suggested Tylenol which I held off on as I wanted to feel if the cramps got worse. My husband asked if I wanted him to come, and I told him no since he was already taking time off of work for Friday’s scan. I took a hot shower and curled up in bed feeling better and actually slept well and don’t remember cramping overnight.@@

When I woke up this morning, I used the restroom and when I wiped there was pink on the toilet paper and a little in the toilet. Cue freak out. I called my husband who immediately came home and took a hot shower and some Tylenol and proceeded to cry on and off convinced it’s over. I was again having period-like cramping. The pink spotting turned into brown discharge. We prepared ourselves for the worst. I didn’t see my regular OB but the woman I saw was incredibly kind. She checked my cervix, which was closed and she could see the old brown discharge on it. Then she did an abdominal scan where we were able to see the heartbeat and hear it (it sounded fast but she didn’t measure it). Lastly she did a vaginal scan and got a good CRL measuring on track for my dates. My cervix was around 2.5cm which she said was probably fine for now as her measurement could have been off. Since I’m seeing the high risk OB Friday (apparently with the NT you do see this OB) she will have them check again and they can give me more information on incompetent cervix and what the plan would be if I ended up with it. There was no obvious source of the (assumed old) bleed.@@

She then recommended that I go back to taking the progesterone suppositories twice a day and continue that through 34 weeks. It won’t hurt anything and in her experience she thinks it’s a good measure to take if we are worried about incompetent cervix. I also asked her to place me off work the rest of the week which she did. I just want to rest and not be on my feet all day in my occasionally stressful job. She said since I have a history of miscarriages my risk of having another one is obviously higher but she is highly optimistic that things will work out. I hope she’s right.@@

So now we wait until Friday to find out our risk of genetic issues and to see if the baby is still doing well. Both of us are obviously concerned but are trying to remain positive. I was actually starting to feel comfortable in this pregnancy, but that all changed this morning. I’m still having the period-like cramping although it’s not as bad as yesterday (but today I’m taking Tylenol so who knows how much pain that’s helping with). I had a lot of brown discharge after I went number two (sorry if TMI) but after that I’ve had nothing when wiping and a slight amount on my pad. I really hope this works out, as I cannot imagine the alternative at this point.@@

My husband has been amazingly supportive and loving throughout all of this. When we got home from the appointment, he gave me a beautiful necklace with matching earrings. It was originally supposed to be for Mother’s Day but he wanted me to have it now. I am so touched and lucky to have him by my side, through the good and the bad.@@

Thanks again everyone for the support! Sorry I’m such a sporadic writer.